Our Full Moon partial Lunar Eclipse
occurs on Tuesday in the sign of Capricorn at 5:39 PM EDT at 24
degrees. Capricorn is many things. Leadership. Accountability.
Acquired experience. Public reputation and the work we do in the
world. But, Capricorn is also past history, karma, closure, what has
been established and endings. Full Moon's in general herald a
culmination of events and a manifestation of outcome. So, at this
Full Moon we get a double dose with Capricorn carrying similar
themes. Of course, we have a Full Moon in Capricorn every year. So,
this is not unusual. And, typically, there is a quite a palpable
shift that comes as we full into Summer with the passage of the Sun
into Cancer. It's not untypical to begin to reap the first fruits of
the spring's plantings as the Moon blossoms Full in Capricorn. The
plants will still grow and produce but the fruits now begin to ripen
on the vine. Regardless of whether our first harvest is bountiful or
sparse, we also begin to reap lessons from the period of planting and
growth. We begin to take note of the things we did that were
effective and those that were not. We begin to perceive the effects
of things that were out of our control (such as the weather) and also
recognize what effected the growth that for which we hold
accountability. From there, the best “growers” take honest note
as they are concerned about future plantings and ways in which they
can improve their participation in light of things that are not able
to be controlled in effort to produce a more prolific bounty. The
best kinds of leaders learn from experience and incorporate these
lessons into their plans for the future while maintaining a sense of
compassion for someone who may fail due to a lack of experience. In
that, they are willing to share their own stories of failure in
effort to encourage others to keep growing because up is the only way
to really grow according to the Goat.
So. If we overlay that concept upon our
lives, we begin to see the relevance of the movements of the Moon
through the year. What projects/initiatives did you launch in the
spring? Those are the seeds you planted that are now hopefully
producing fruits/blossoms. But, of course, what is currently
blossoming in our lives has a deeper history. It's roots were laid
long before last spring. And, the themes of this Moon reach back in
time to capture the very essence and framework of our entire sense of
being. We are looking at things like our familial and ancestral
roots. With the current Mercury retrograde, we are re-assessing the
entirety of that history and how it has bore impact upon the person
we find ourselves to be. This is less of a yearly growth check and
more of an assessment of the very ground we were planted in and a
delineation of how fortified or toxic that ground is. We can learn
how certain things were unwittingly conditioned into our being and
how it is we changed or altered our true sense of self due the
atmosphere (family/location/culture) we were born into and how the
“reality” in that atmosphere may have even dictated our decisions
long after we physically or mentally left our original soil behind
us.
Now...some realizations of this stuff
can be quite disturbing on personal levels. You know? People feel
they are who they are due their own deliberate sense of personal
construction. However, once you have a few of these personal
flashbacks revealing to you how you've altered yourself in effort to
accommodate whatever structure you were manifested in? You realize
there is a lot about you that you have not really been in control of.
Yet, at the same time, even though
potentially unsettling, learning about these elements of “us”
built by external influence can be quite liberating in the end. Once
we accept the realizations, we can go back to those very early times
in effort to remember what our original core essence is. We can begin
to give ourselves permission to recapture that essence of self and,
with more mature and wise eyes, slowly allow that essence to be
expressed instead of repressed or unwittingly controlled by external
influence.
Sounds easy. But, it is certainly a
process that takes longer than one Full Moon and is known to flip a
person completely inside out in a really messy way before they are
able to stabilize and understand what it all means. There are
emotions to deal with in all that. And, as a species, we really kind
of suck at dealing with those. Yet, dealing with the emotional
influence is a crucial step. The most crucial is that of acceptance.
You don't get there until you've processed all the grief associated
with what it is you have discovered in those roots.
It's not uncommon to feel as if what
was experienced in our upbringing and culture was standard and
normal. But, through life's travels, there are usually slowly dawning
realizations that show us “normal” is a ridiculous and false
concept and some of the things we experienced as such were...actually
pretty fucked up. As we begin to perceive that, we can feel a
spectrum of emotions from anger to depression. It's not until after
those emotions are healthfully traversed that we are able to look
forward and declare what changes we need to make in order to more
fully align with who it is we truly are and what we are capable of
while also changing the paradigm so that the “sickness” we
encountered in our earliest development doesn't spread to younger
generations and to ensure they aren't unconsciously running our lives
threatening to infect anyone we may come in contact with. For
example, I was infuriated to learn that much of my relationship life
had been directly impacted by things I experienced and that were out
of my control at an early age. By the time I figured it out, I'd
already been divorced twice and given birth to two children. I'm
over-loaded with Libra energy. Relationships are important to me.
But, once I realized my own patterns; realized how those patterns
were birthed; how they operated in my life and how “not really me”
they were...I was able to begin to change my end of that dynamic.
And, doing so made all the difference in the world in terms how my
personal relationships began to go. They are not perfect little sugar
castles. But, at least “I” am actually the person in the them.
Not my past experiences.
It's a difficult process. It is,
however, totally worthy dealing with many areas other than
relationships. It plays a part in the jobs we choose, how we raise
our children or whether we even decide to have children. These
implanted scripts and structures run silently in the background
running many things. They can provide a sense of security and safety.
They can define for us what reality even is. Thus, questioning them
or even thinking that they may be false can be terrifying for some.
What we deem as “The way things have always been done,”
“routine,” “normal” and our concepts of “reality”
crashing before our eyes is not something folks usually run with
enthusiasm toward.
During this Full Moon eclipse, we are
gifted with the opportunity to perceive these things about ourselves.
Over the course of the next two weeks, we can begin to slough off
that false skin and allow the slurry of the emotions that were
catalyzed by it to slowly trickle down stream. We will not and cannot
uncover all in these trappings in one Moon. But, this one offers us a
view of a crucial sliver of it. If you are shoved out, made to walk
through an exit door, broken up with, un-friended or experience a
door slamming in you face...it might hurt. But, in retrospect, you
will likely understand how NOT for you the place, partner, job or
friend really was. There is not much solace in knowing that as it
occurs. Most will likely question themselves...and...ya know, maybe
some need to! But, regardless of how it is handled, the hands on the
clock will keep moving. The world keep turning. We too will
eventually have to accept and carry forward. It's our choice whether
or not we learn from it.
By the time we get to the second New
Moon in July, we are ready to implement changes that are more aligned
with who it is we really are and start to cultivate a more sincere
form of self. Divine timing has Mercury turning direct in Cancer the
day following the New Moon in Leo on 7/31 which, in turn, will
energetically lead us toward that concept of re-creating and
nurturing this sense of self that has been surrendered or lost in the
shuffle known as life. It's called growing up. We continually
encounter these “rites of passage” throughout life.
As a result of what ecliptic, some
folks will uproot. Leave homes. Leave jobs. Leave friends, habits and
former beliefs and standards of living and behavior behind them. Or,
could find ourselves booted out of these dynamics and forced to
either move on and repeat this unconscious sense of self in a new
venue or realize accountability for making the personal changes being
brought to our attention at this time. These things folks ditch
voluntarily will feel like heavy false skins that are no longer
tolerable. As if they confined us in a very tight restrictive box and
now we are suffocating. Some may virtually blow their lives to
smithereens. However. The most sustainable and healthy way to go
about it at this time in our Universal history, is to just make the
decision to begin the gradual walk out of those deep woods.
Capricorn 16: Boys and girls in
gymnasium suits
For others? Well, for some nothing is
going to happen. Lucky jerks. But, hang in there...YOUR ECLIPSE IS
COMING! But, if you have a direct hit from this eclipse by way of
Cardinal planets between about 20 and 28 degrees you just won the
eclipse lottery, my friend. For those, some of these closures and
being pushed through the exit door will be a total shock to the
system. As if reality is crumbling and they are the victim of it all.
Each has an accountability to deal with their own. Thankfully
Cardinal folks often have tha that kind of initiative. You can be
supportive to someone who is experiencing this but in the end, it is
up to them to take accountability for themselves and realize their
false constructs on their own. Or not. There will be many “or
nots.” There is the potential for folks to get trapped in this and
end up being frozen in time like a tintype photograph. Their growth
is done. They sour and stagnate. And their lives continue on like a
skipping record whose song is one of perpetual victimhood and
flailing responsibility. They have a tendency to blow by like
tumbleweeds on our journeys. Dull. Lifeless. Directionless, merely
incorporated into the scenery. Barren...and wholly at the mercy of
external elements leaving nothing of value behind them.
Yet, we don't have to allow this
tumbleweed future to be ours. Instead, we can choose ourselves, our
growth and reclaim our right to journey forward in an effort to learn
and expand into areas we never even dreamed of because our origins
preached of its impossibility or shamed us for even dreaming of it.
Once we traverse the acceptance and grieving/emotional periods, we
can turn the page and begin to pen our new purposely self-crafted
story instead of becoming hardwired in bitterness and devoid of hope.
Our guide for this lunation is the Page
of Coins. All pages are students as well as messengers. In the land
of Coin, the Page may deliver bills or paychecks. But, she's not only
studying the checks and balances of finance. She is studying and
learning about what is truly valuable and how to grow that. She is
learning the value of taking your time to create something of value
instead of rushing through for the cheap and easy that only lasts a
minute or two. She's not interested in instant gratification or flash
in the pan success. She wants quality. Stability.
Sustainability...and she's pretty done wasting her hard earned money
on new tech equipment and plastic garbage every year. She's ready for
durability. She's curious about the wares you have to offer. And if
its something that looks like a cheap dime store knock off with an
inflated price tag she is going to lose interest really quickly.
25 Cap: an
Oriental rug dealer
As guide, she wants to tickle our
curiosities about what it is that is truly important to us. She wants
us to strive to learn more about it. She would definitely love to
talk about these things and share her own ideas as well. She doesn't
care about how many tasks you can half-ass juggle at once. She is
more interested in the whole of the tapestry and the quality of the
weave which holds your personal and unique signature. The crafting of
our legacy. An expression of what type of specialized energy we each
hold within us and how we develop that into something that will stand
as the fruit of our entire lifetime. She wants to know what we stand
for and what we values we wrap our efforts around. She wants to know
what seeds we are planting. Our secrets to their feeding. And, what
types of fruits we or ordain and establish for ourselves and our
posterity. She wants to know how we may withstand temptation to break
from these values we stand upon and how it is we maintain faith in
them. How they have helped or hindered our sense of self-worth. She
wants to know of our calluses that were born of scraping our way back
to center. Our determination and focus. Our resilience. And, of how
our stubbornness can be turned into tenacity when dealing with things
that are truly important. But, moreover...she is curious about what
those foundations of importance of are and how it is we came to stand
on them so stoically. Did we decide for ourselves? Or was it just
something everyone else told us was important?
25 Cancer: The dark shadow or mantle
thrown suddenly over the right shoulder
In order to meet the challenge of the
Page under this Full Moon, we must decide for ourselves what
platforms we stand on. We must discover if we got to those plateaus
because that's where we were trying to climb? Or, were we placed
there by way of influence from external forces. Then, we must decide
what it is that is important to us on individual levels following the
realizations that there are parts of us that were stunted in growth
due early environmental weathers (family, culture, etc). Once we
understand more fully these things, we can begin to slowly make
changes that align more with who it is we really are instead of what
our environment expected us to be. Feel free to take your time. This
isn't a race. You weren't built over night and you won't be rebuilt
over night either.
Some of us are, in truth, stray annual
weeds that bloom in unusual places and end up having our seeds
scattered in influence across the globe. There are others who take
root and grow to be mighty oaks. Pillars of history and legacy in the
same location they were dropped. Between the two extremes lies
unlimited possibilities. There is not one that is more favorable than
the other. But there is one that is more suitable to you as an
individual. If you are a rose bush growing in a grape orchard, you
could feel as if you don't belong and fall short of what plants are
supposed to do. Or, you could feel as if you are wholly unique with
something to offer that is entirely different than what your
neighbors are producing. You can understand that each has value even
though different. We merely have to decide for ourselves what kind of
seed we are and allow ourselves to grow and blossom into that. While
also discerning if we find ourselves planted in supportive soil or
toxic waste and whether or not that's where we want to grow. We are
being given a chance to perceive where we may overlook or give away
our power to create positive change for ourselves. It's up to us on
individual levels to decide whether or not we will continue to
perpetuate the false facades, deny our specialized gifts and become
those tintype images or to recapture our sense of self and turn the
page.
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