I'm looking at today with curiosity and
trepidation. The Moon triggers the Yod in my chart between Chiron,
Mercury and Venus, like it does every month while in Aries. Except,
this time, the Sun and Venus are involved. I'm kind of interested to
see how that plays out. My Mars sits in opposition to my Chiron in
Aries and has been undergoing a square from Pluto for a very long
time making 5 passes. Well, I've not survived the 5th pass
yet. That comes as Mars conjuncts Pluto (both squaring my Mars) on
November 10 at 11 degrees and 35 minutes. Given that my Mars acts
like a slingshot shooting right through the middle of my Yod with
Chiron often resulting in me acting erratically and shooting myself
in the foot, I think I'll wear my big leash today.
Thankfully, I've learned a lot about
Mars/Pluto in the last few years. Even more than I already knew
having the two conjunct in my natal chart. Mainly what I've learned
is that I have a pretty hot, seething and malicious temper. I've also
learned that I can control it if I want as I also have Mars trine
Saturn. Too bad control is the last thing I want when I'm angry.
At any rate, I've worked very hard
during the Cardinal t-squares from Pluto and Uranus that affected my
Mars in an effort to get him under control and discover just exactly
how he operates. I was also quite disappointed to discover that
knowledge of how this placement operates didn't make my more malefic
tendencies go away. Those trigger points still exist. The only thing
that has changed is my knowledge of them and how I choose to respond
to them. But, my initial blood thirsty and vengeance filled inklings
in response to being angered are still there. Though, I'm not really
sure why or where they truly came from.
I mean, you would think I would have
experienced violence and uncontrolled anger in my early conditioning
or something. But, my childhood home was peaceful. There was no
fighting. There was no maliciousness. Nope. Can't blame that.
Apparently, this is all me.
If you have planets between 11 and 16
degrees Virgo, this Yod is coming for you too. If you have planets
between 8-14 degrees Cardinal, then you get a big whopping Cardinal
t-square formed by the Moon, Pluto and Uranus today bringing focus to
those planets and their rate of maturation (and your mastery of them)
over the past few years. Of course, planets at these degrees are
pretty used to Cardinal t-squares by now. Which also means they
should all be operating at the top of their game, right? All of us
with planets here have learned to free ourselves (Uranus) from the
subconscious operations of our shadow (Pluto)...right? Gulp. Um,
yeah. Sure we have.
This morning we wake up to a blood
thirsty Moon in Aries square Pluto in Capricorn (9:08 AM). The
negative side of this energy is blood thirsty and vengeful, that is.
The positive side of it looks a lot like a Phoenix shooting out of
cannon. It can be revitalizing and restoring giving us opportunity to
make tremendous progress especially in the realm of personal
overhaul. And, any efforts taken in that regard are likely to be
rewarded as the Moon meets Sun in Scorpio (10:16 AM) and Venus in
Scorpio (3:07 PM) by inconjunct.
The thing of it is, discovering those
dark parts of ourselves can be disgusting, scary and even painful. So
the opportunities to learn about them can be quite uncomfortable. The
situation is really a lot more difficult than just choosing the good
or bad expression of Moon square Pluto and more about our ability and
willingness to examine these parts because, admittedly, it's not an
easy task. “Easy task” is SO not in Saturn in Scorpio's
repertoire.
In between the inconjuncts, the Moon
meets Uranus by conjunction at 12:30 PM. This can serve as an
emotional catalyst. Something pokes us and prompts us to respond.
And, we may be called to respond quickly or at least with a sense of
urgency. In acting quickly (being given little time to think about
it) we may be tempted to resort to the way we operated before we had
the knowledge of how these things worked on autopilot. It is less
likely that the first thing we will be prompted to do is to step back
and take a breath before engaging. But, that's exactly what you
should do. Stop. Breathe. THINK about this. Do you want to do the
things you've always done or do you want to be a more free and
independent person who makes decisions in their best long term
interests? Or, do you want to do what feels best and satisfies your
blood thirst “in the moment” regardless of the consequences?
Moon/Pluto can provide the forbearance to do things differently or
really make those shadow parts of ourselves come out and dance if
left unchecked. And, Moon/Uranus can provide those “in the moment”
opportunities to find out exactly how well we've gotten these parts
of ourselves under our command.
So, yeah. It's a potentially dangerous
and highly tense day. One in which you will want to be in control of
all your faculties and at the top of your game which may not be easy
given the potential that last night held for restless sleep.
Bear in mind that the Moon has made
this aspect (square Pluto and conjunct Uranus) every month for a few
years. So, that part of it is nothing new. What is new is that these
aspects haven't always occurred as Mars was waxing toward a
conjunction with Pluto. We cannot say, however, that we haven't had a
chance to experience this tension without Mars involved, though. He
certainly was highly involved while he was wandering around Libra.
Yet, with the conjunction, Mars begins a brand new cycle with Pluto.
It is our chance to shed the old skin associated with the more
malefic ways we operated in the past...or not. But, don't expect to
easily be able to wrangle yourself toward new actions. Nope. That
will be the hard part because temptation to do otherwise will be
strongly present and the situations that arise prompting response
will likely be uncomfortable and potentially triggering.
When you get up this morning, allow
yourself a little extra time to ground and center before heading out
into your day. Eat something that provides for a sustainable energy
source. Steer clear of a sugary breakfast and high amounts of
caffeine that threaten to cause you to crash by midday or to be
jittery. Tiredness and scattered energy will make these aspects
harder to direct effectively. Don't make it harder on yourself. Keep
your boundaries up and tightly in force so that you will be less
likely to be triggered by someone else's actions while keeping in
mind the long term ramifications of your own actions within the
situation. “In the moment” often gives us ample opportunity to
forget that.
Know the difference between a true
emergent situation and one that requires you to stop and think things
through before acting. The energy to react quickly in a true
emergency will be there. Grounding helps you realize the difference
between something that needs a swift immediate response and something
that just makes us feel like a swift immediate response is needed.
Be alert. Be assertive. Be on the top
of your game. The air is prickly and electrified. The Moon is
building in her fullness bringing a pinpoint to the potential
re-activeness of our emotional bodies and bringing intensity to how
we feel. Don't allow a surge of activity or triggering circumstances
to cause you to shoot yourself in the foot. And, realize that even if
you have a good handle on yourself, others may not and today will
give them ample opportunity to prove that. So, be very aware of your
environment while you are holding on to your big leash on yourself.
At the very least, reserve some time
today to be active so you can burn off any excess Mars energy. This
works double duty as it brings grounding to ambition and settles our
emotional body at the same time. If you feel anger bubbling up and
threatening to overtake you, grab that beast by the neck and take him
for a walk. Let him wail on a heavy bag or break dishes in the
backyard if he wants. Just don't let him steamroll anyone or worse.
Remember, you are the boss of him. Not the other way around. Not
anymore.
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