This morning we wake up to the Moon in
Pisces swimming away from a conjunction with her ruler, Neptune (1:17
AM) while waxing into square with the Sun in Pisces creating our
First Quarter Moon. Flexibility is, again, important during this Moon
phase. At the New Moon, we began stretching. By now, we should be
nicely warmed up and a bit more mobile. However, we are not done yet.
By the time the Full Moon in Gemini waxes in next week, we will need
to be on our toes and ready for movement on both a physical and
mental level. Mercury newly in Sagittarius will help to stretch our
mentality and certainly assist with expanding our perspective.
By 1:37 PM, our fishy Moon is
strengthened by a sextile to Pluto. We bubble down with bravery into
deeper waters and explore our subsurface emotions. This occurs just
prior to a conjunction of the Moon to Chiron. That aspect can serve
as the stick pin that pokes the Moon causing emotional leaking or
tears. Pisces Moon's are accustomed to tears provoked for various
reasons. The best advice here is to allow the emotions to wash in and
over you while allowing them to wash out again. Observe them. Feel
them. Then, let them go. It helps to imagine the tides sweeping away
all the debris that Moon/Pluto drew to the surface leaving us
purified and filled with cleaner water. Restored. Refreshed.
No matter how you flip it, people could
be sensitive and well attuned to the energy of the folks around them.
It's not a particularly ambitious day. But, there is a primordial
tension affecting the collective. Our soul is yearning for something
more. More can encompass a desire for greater meaning and purpose in
one's life. It can be a yearning for an end to conflict and a need
for peace and solitude. And the sensitivity could have us becoming
tear filled in light of things like Hallmark commercials or even
becoming misty in light of the nature's beauty as we look out our
front windows and see the magical white frosting that nature has laid
upon our otherwise dead and sullen ground.
Pisces and Sagittarian energy in
conflict can, in fact, be quite magical. Sagittarius can provide
additional buoyancy to a Pisces Moon. Traditionally, these two signs
are both ruled by Jupiter. So, in wrangling the tension of this first
quarter, reach for the positive expressions of the Red Giant while
avoiding his less savory qualities. Do not be afraid or try to resist
the increased compassion, empathy and potential emotionality brought
forth by Neptune's influence. Indulge in the gentleness found in life
while directing some of that gentleness toward yourself.
By 9:28 PM, the Moon is in square to
Venus. We may want to explore, spread our wings, embrace the world
with generosity or dance. But, we may be ill, in need of rest or find
the expanding landscape so beautiful that it touches our hearts in a
way that stops us awe. There is chance for redemption here...a rising
from the waters with warmth and exaltation in our hearts.
I was swamped recently by overwhelming
emotions. This isn't so unusual for me. I have a Pisces Moon that is
preparing for it's fifth conjunction from Neptune. So far, I have
been unable to put these emotions into words or talk about the
situations which brought them about. They were deeply personal and
filled with an adequate mixture of pain, remorse, joy and hopefulness
all at the same time. I did not fight back my tears or try to direct
myself toward “pulling it together.” What I did do, though, was
turn on some music and allowed my body to tune into the vibrations
involved which assisted me to process some of those wordless
emotions. I danced as I cooked a surprise meal for my neighbor. This
is how I self-nurture. I don't resist the tides. But, instead of
allowing them to drag me under, I allow them to wash over me and
drift back out to sea. Then, I reach for generosity. Doing something
nice for someone makes me instantly feel better. It helps me to
realize that I'm not alone. Pisces Moons swim in collective emotion.
But, at the same time, they can feel deeply lonely and hollow.
Dreams tonight can be wonderfully
elaborate and may even hold information pertaining to our long-term
or immediate futures. The more pure your waters, the more able you
will be to translate any dream (or intuitive) activity into something
that provides accurate delineation of what our subconscious is trying
to tell us. Our ability to self-nurture can be particularly important
today as nurturing (Moon) from the outside world can be quite elusive
(Pisces) or even non-existent. The square to Venus pokes us to emerge
from our waters and reach out to the world with benevolence
translating those tears into love and openness as we embrace one
another. Release those emotions with conscious direction through
meditation and prayer.
As I was dancing and cooking during my
emotional washout, I also began singing. I don't normally sing. But,
even I was surprised by how weak my voice had become. It broke and
was shaky. But, by the time I was finished with my whirling, my
breath had become more regulated and I was able breathe in more
deeply in an effort to push the sound out of my body. Pulling myself
through was hard but making the choice not to wallow was harder. But,
by not resisting the flow, I had more energy to strengthen myself. By
focusing on my breath I became more connected to my physical body and
by reaching out, I realized that I wasn't really alone even though,
at the time, I felt orphaned and abandoned.
Allow yourself to feel what you feel.
Don't be afraid of it. Don't try to suppress it and don't try to
escape it. Explore those emotions and don't worry so much if you
cannot put how you feel into words. Express them, instead, however
you feel comfortable...art, music, dance. Rest more if you need to.
Spend some time decompressing alone if you need to. But, don't allow
yourself to wallow too long. Instead of holding onto water, allow it
to flow from you while you replace it with clear purified waters.
Activity will increase as the Moon moves into Aries. We won't want to
be carrying this baggage by then...so let it go now.
We find more solid footing tomorrow and
are able to bring emotion and motivation together in an effort to
move forward. But, today, we've got to deal with the leviathans of
our beings. True strength lies in allowing ourselves to be permeable
and vulnerable even though our culture tries to tell us that strength
comes in denial, physical exertions of force or by walling ourselves
up. It is our ability to remain open and compassionate toward
ourselves and others that makes us truly strong. So, if you are
crying or just emotionally struck by the beauty found in the
simplicities of life, know that you are exhibiting might not
weakness. Allow yourself to be softened and diligently nurture
yourself through it. Follow wherever the waters take you all while
knowing the tides will eventually wash you ashore renewed, refreshed
and restored.
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