For the Sun at 16 Leo: Refreshed by
a storm, fields and gardens bask in the Sun. I love the
feeling that this symbol represents. However, you don't get to that
fresh revelation until after the storm. That must be weathered and
faced first. Storms are symbolic of crisis. The water offers
cleansing and we don't always get to cherry pick what gets to be
“cleansed” and what remains untouched. We can, however, conduct
and shelter ourselves in center of peace and protection until the
storm passes allowing (as if we have a choice but to allow) it to
strip and wash away both on the inside and out. It's scary going in
especially when we are fearful of what can be lost. However, being
reminded that all things and people can be lost to the storm in a
blink of an eye can surely reorient us to what is truly important.
For the Moon at 16
Aquarius: Business manager at his desk studies a complex project.
This symbol calls for focus,
thinking and concentration. All of which are really hard to do when
the emotional body is in flux. In that, dealing with our emotional
bodies is the first task we must address. Once we have a deeper
understanding of how we feel and why, we can then invoke the logical
brain toward problem solving. We need to be in command here.
Consciously steering from the helm in order to manage the situation.
This symbol also reminds me of the 8 of Coins. We have experience
that we have previously built to get us to our current plateau. It's
now time to take that experience and acquired wisdom and stretch it
into new ventures while leaving ourselves open to learning and
experiencing more.
For
the Moon's ruler, Uranus Rx, headed toward 28 Aries: Now.
I've found two different illustrations of this in my search of the
Sabian symbols. One is (as described by Blaine Bovee and Lynda Hill)
A large disappointed audience.
The
other is (taken from Dane Rudhyar) A crowd applauds a man
who shattered a dear illusion.
But,
here's the thing, regardless of how it is stated it equates to the
same thing. The Emperor is naked in some way and the reaction from
the crowd is two fold. One half cheering. The other disappointed at
the revelation. Either way, something is given away here and the
matter of “self” is placed on the other end of it as witness.
What is likely set to occur here is exposure in the realm of the
public. Meaning, as part of the public, we will be witnessing the
exposure. Our current perspective of the world at large will dictate
whether we cheer over the shattered illusion or are disappointed. In
either instance, it is relevant to understand that even though we are
part of the collective who will witness the exposure, we are also
“self” in which matters of “self” will also be exposed to the
public at the same time. In other words, we may see (or have it
pointed out to us by witnesses) where we, too, are naked and where
malefic factors of Ego may play a part in that. These include but are
certainly not limited to matters of pride, pomp, showy-ness,
willfulness and, in general, pointing at core issues of the identity
that have served to historically be factors for the entirety of its
existence.
Watch
your recent “I” statements for clues in that.
What
we have here is what I refer to as a boomerang Yod created with two
generational planets who have been in sextile for many lifetimes. Of
course the orb has ebbed and waned but everyone in existence on this
planet at this time has this sextile between Pluto and Neptune in
their charts. As a matter of fact, few Astrologers even pay attention
to it because it has been in play for so long just kind of dictating
different themes of different generations. For example, the
foundational themes of a generation can be viewed by looking at the
art, music and creative expressions that “defined” that
generation. These artistic expressions define our generations, yes.
The issues that catalyzed their creation, subsequently, become part
of the “houses that built us.” However, individual response to
that varies...which is where the Sun comes into play here. There may
be matters of ego that developed in response to these generational
issues that we are unable to recognize because they are so deeply
ingrained within us. However, that is what up for exposure now.
Showing what developed within you as a result of these generational
themes and showing you, at the same time, how you are prone to
expression of that for better or worse.
The
boomerang comes into play because we are witnesses of this exposure
within the collective but it boomerangs back as we, ourselves, are
exposed at the same time. You will likely notice this with the folks
around you as you can vividly see the thorns of their psyche exposed.
The downfall of it is not taking the time to inspect yourself for the
same because I promise you, you are not exempt. Even if it is a quiet
affair without a public display (which could be the case if the Moon
falls in a private sector of your chart)...exposure happens and
someone will likely bear witness even if they don't say anything. The
entirety of the point, though, is that you notice. That you keep a
watchful eye for matters of malefic Ego that have run in the
background operations of your life and are as obvious as the nose on
your face, probably, to others but something that is SO innate to you
that you never really paid attention to it.
The
weaving of themes within this is so intricate and detailed...very
personal...tying all kinds of things together and putting them “at
issue” in such a way that the immediate message of ALL of it may
only be apparent to you as you are the only one that knows the truth
of your past history; and, you are the only one that can note the
pattern of themes in an effort to see how they have played out across
the time span of your own life. So, yes...witnessed on the outside;
but, that is a mere sliver in comparison to what you may find when
you take the time to introspect or self-inspect the depth of what is
truly going on here.
In
those personal revelations you may be disappointed with yourself or
happy with you find. Others may bear witness one way or the other,
too. Point being, now you know. Is this something you want to keep
doing? Or has this been a continual source of your own undoing that
you've failed to see before that you are going to allow to continue?
AAAAH!
And, there's the clutch. Because some of this stuff is going to be
difficult to admit to yourself. Something so deeply ingrained within
you comes forth and on a personal level that may be hard to face.
However,
as advice, we have the Empress. The supreme mother. Who points to our
Cancerian energy which holds Venus, Hekate and Ceres. The highest
expression (not what you may have experienced) but the HIGHEST
expression of the Empress Mother is acceptance and unconditional love
of the child. Even with the child's faults. Even through the child's
temper tantrums. The mother loves and takes care of the child while
being honest WITH the child about the things he/she may be doing to
hurt themselves that they are not aware of. Gentle nurturing
self-acceptance and guidance toward more conscious and supportive
self-expression at the same time is what is warranted. But, you can't
do that if you are stuck in denial or pride that says there is
nothing you are doing wrong and it's all the fault of everyone else.
You see? Because, it's not. You play a part in some way and that
“role” that you play without even realizing it is what is exposed
here. Sussing out the root instigator within yourself that causes
that continual role to emerge is the trick.
With
me it's willfulness and malefic pride. From the day I was born, “I
will do it myself” has emerged out of my mouth over and over and as
soon as I was able to say it. Without permission. Without knowing
what I was doing. Without seeking advice/instruction. “I will do it
myself in the way I want or die trying” is the full length of the
statement that continually serves to point to my own demise. Or,
“Watch me.” A Uranian statement (natal Sun/Mars conjunct the
lighting God) and a reflexive “cut my nose off to spite myself”
knee jerk reaction that is wrapped up with my Chiron who forms a
boomerang Yod in my chart...just....like...this...one. Any kind of
“You can't” implied or spoken outright toward me that may insult
my sense of independence is automatically met with “Watch me.”
Then, I will follow through (self-destructive or successful) until it
is done...overdone, even. This fact IS as obvious as the nose on my
face to others but something that is so “innately me” I've failed
to see it. I keep circling back to the time I outright asked my
mother, “If you had to describe me when I was a kid, what would you
say?” She immediately said, “You were a very willful child.”
LOL. She saw it when I was a toddler. I was in the throes of midlife
before I saw it and realized it. AND, even though I can vividly see
it now...I'm lax to change it because it is me! Yes, I see who I am.
And, that's literally WHO I am. As I adamantly stand on that, you
know? How that unfolds is still up to me. I maintain power of choice
and awareness. I can work to change it or continue to be slain by
it...my choice. Main problem being, “I” really don't know any
other way while the admission of “not knowing” is another
Chironic issue that bubbles up to play here for me too.
Sun/Mars/Uranus (opposite Chiron)..Mercury in the 11th
(inconjunct Chiron and square this eclipse)....the shadow of that
Uranus action there is that it expects itself TO KNOW and feels “less
than” or inadequate when it doesn't or has to admit that. Venus in
Virgo also inconjunct my Chiron and semi-sextile this eclipse as my
natal Saturn (sextile to my Chiron and trine the Moon/sextile the Sun
at this eclipse) plays a part here too...ALL OF THE AFOREMENTIONED
PLANETS that bear relevance here are either currently receiving
Neptune/Pluto transits or just did (Pluto being furthest ahead and
filling in the “just did” as in just did trine my Venus, sextile
my Mercury and square my Uranus while Neptune hits all that shit
right now).
Suffice
to say...that's “MY” story. That's how this is playing out in my
chart and it denotes feelings of low self-esteem and low self-worth
that feels better when it “proves” itself even if it is to my own
detriment. There is a story about YOU in here, though. That's what
you need to be looking for without letting the drama coming forth
from the collective exposure distract you from the boomerang that
points right back at you. It is very deeply woven in your chart and
within the personal time line of your life, I'll say again, so the
entire truth of it (even with public exposure) is really only
accessible to you because you know your personal history (and
yourself) better than anyone else.
So.
What are to let go of at this Full Moon eclipse? We have the choice
of freeing ourselves from the malefic expressions of ego that may
have woven themselves into our identity and served only toward
self-destruction or being chained within these malefic cycles.
Thus...as a end result...we are given awareness and a choice echoing
the them semi-sextile between Uranus (RULER OF THIS MOON) and Chiron
in Pisces in which Uranus is trying his damnedest to help us
free/liberate ourselves from these things that we deny or try to
coverup/escape but continually undo (Pisces) ourselves with.
So,
all that covers this boomerang Yod, right? Where, then, lies the
answer in the best way to navigate it? What are our tools?
Bearing
in mind the advice of the Empress, we have the Mystic rectangle that
holds 3 Goddesses in its entrapment and includes that very same
Pluto/Neptune Yod AND Mercury in Virgo...who just happens to be in
shadow. In other words, “fixing” or using this awareness to
foster positive personal change is going to be a process of winding
and rewinding and unwinding all in the interest of 1) converting this
Pluto/Neptune into something more beneficial through personal
awareness 2) picking apart that which is relevant WITHOUT cutting
self apart but instead UNCONCTIONALLY ACCEPTING (Venus) what is found
and like the highest expression of “mother” nurturing ourselves
and redirecting in a gentle way that shows a more beneficial and
conscious expression of what you find. It may involve changes and
restructuring of both perspective and daily routine but it goes
without saying that once you stand at the crossroads and “witness”
what emerges there your moves forward and your personal “outlook”
on yourself and your life will be forever altered. Oh...hello there
Hekate. 3) feed what you want to grow (Ceres in Cancer/Empress) and
4) Vesta in Virgo says pay homage and honor to the detail and says to
remain self-honest while appreciating your power of choice and
ability to “fix” what needs to be fixed. Because, you can.
Because, that is what is going to benefit you most (recognizing,
accepting then subsequently redirecting toward more positive
expression) in the end.
And
it totally sucks. I'll tell you that. But, if you can do this the
efforts are 100% worthy. Free yourself from yourself through
self-awareness and acceptance and convert unconscious malefic Ego
expressions (as they are exposed to you) into something more
self-supportive and conscious, instead. Sounds simple. Totally ain’t.
It's deep. It's personal. It's convoluted. Yet, that is our task at
hand. Remember that as you witness this go down in the collective;
because, it WILL BE a dramatic show. The thing to focus upon is the
boomerang that points right back to YOU. Don't get wrapped up in the
sea of the collective and miss it. The Eclipse is going to isolate it
for you and a great amount of positive personal change COULD come as
a result if you don't allow yourself to be distracted away from it by
the outer chaos. In other words, the Full Moon in the Collective
report says...DON'T GIVE ALL YOUR ATTENTION TO THE COLLECTIVE BECAUSE
THIS IS ABOUT YOU. JUST. YOU.
I
will leave you with my chosen “poster child” for the eclipse. The
song that I'm going to post were essentially his “final words” to
the collective. In his chart, you will find that his Jupiter in Leo
is conjunct the Sun at this eclipse. Johnny Cash was very prideful
and his end reflections in this video are very telling of a man who
can now look back on his life with a deeper sense of understanding
for better or worse. This hollow echo of reflection and truth 100%
encompasses the feel of the ecliptic. Take it from Johnny, as he is
one who surely knows the effect of malefic pride. He built and
“empire of dirt” and tells you that you can have it..as he can
now see that empire was of pure irrelevance in regard to what truly
“made” his life. Humble hard words to swallow. But, there is no
more relevant truth to this. You can read the story behind this song
here.
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