This morning, we wake up to the Moon
lingering in Cancer and hanging on to her Void status until she
enters Leo at 9:14 AM. I feel as if there is potential for the
collective mood to lift a little and stabilize a little with this
shift into Leo. The stabilizing comes from a trine to Saturn at 4:10
AM.
However, there is some tension wrapped
up in the fact that today we will also experience our First Quarter
Moon. This marks the halfway point for the Moon between the New and
Full phases. Emotions build as we near the Full Moon. First Quarters
often mark the building of said emotions with a crisis point of
sorts. This one occurs between the fixed signs of Leo (Moon) and
Taurus (Sun) at 7:56 PM bringing us halfway to our Full Moon in
Scorpio on May 3rd (13 Scorpio 23). Our First Quarter
falls at 5 degrees fixed.
The key to wrangling the challenge or
crisis brought by the First Quarter is to stand strong in who you are
and continually work on whatever it is you are trying to build while
also leaving others room to stand strong in who they are and build
whatever it is they are building. In this, you have to engage your
intelligence, humility, self-awareness and self-acceptance while
realizing we are ALL building here. Or rebuilding as could certainly
could be the case with both Saturn and Pluto retrograde. Most folks
have individually specific “projects” they are working on at this
point. All the building is of equal importance even if what I'm
working on may differ from what my neighbor is working on. Sharing
resources could be of benefit here. Swapping tips and supporting
others as they conversely support you (even if your projects differ)
is another way to deal with this crisis point. The key here is to
realize we need to pool resources and help one another instead of
gobbling up all the cookies for ourselves or feeling
threatened/intimidated because someone else's project is more
elaborate than ours. It's about sharing joy over the progress that
everyone is making instead of whining because what you are building
isn't getting the acclaim you think it should. You should be ok with
your progress without anyone stroking your lion mane to tell you what
a great job you are doing. You know?
I don't like talking about the shadow
of the sign of Leo. I really like Leo energy. But, just like
everything else, the sign does have a dark side. Had I not been
dealing with the shadow of Leo for the last few days, I'd be less
likely to even bring it up. But, the hits have been so prevalent, I
feel inclined to mention them as I feel it may be something that
comes up under this quarter. Though, bear in mind that the trine from
the Moon to Saturn can help grow this energy up.
The shadow of Leo can be an attention
whore. If Leo feels like she is being denied the appropriate amount
of attention from her audience, she will begin to over-act in an
effort to get their attention. And in this instance, it doesn't
matter if that attention is good or bad. The shadow also has a
tendency to only bear witness to one point of view...her own and her
main objective can quickly become “Look at me! And, how fabulous I
am!”
Let me see if I can give you an
example. I was working on something the other day and there was a
person who “needed” my attention (or someone's attention,
anyway---I just happened to be present, I think). As I'm trying to
focus on my work, this person keeps making noises. Knocking on the
chair they were sitting in. Squeaking with their mouth or making
funny vocal noises. Snapping their fingers...simply anything they
could think of to create a minor annoyance that might draw my
attention to them. Now. Let me tell ya something. When I'm engrossed
in something, I get a little irate when someone tries to distract me.
So, I begin getting agitated as I'm continually trying to ignore the
person's efforts to get my attention. I thought, “Maybe if I ignore
her, she'll just stop because it isn't working.” Um...not so much.
When the shadow of Leo is in play, ignoring her will only make her
try something else. Something more unavoidable and undeniable until
the spotlight is fixed dead center on her. In this, I thought the
best idea would just be to get up and move to a place where I could
be alone with my work. I picked up my stuff and moved to another
room...and shut the door. Well. It wasn't long until the person
displaying the shadow side of Leo was at said door knocking, scraping
her fingers across the wood and randomly whistling.
In-fucking-furiating is what that is. This chic was about to get much
more attention than she bargained for if she didn't stop.
The shadow of Leo operates this way
basically because she is not secure in her own worth. She needs
outside validation that she is important because she doesn't have
that validation within herself. “Petting” or “stroking” of
her ego gives her temporary relief and re-assurance that, “Yes, you
are seen and you are a valid presence.” Of course, you cannot make
someone validate their own presence. You can tell them all day long
that they are “seen” and “appreciated” but until they foster
that belief within themselves, the fix will only be temporary and
they will only be back for more “ego petting.”
Now, let's bring this to a level you
can deal with on your own. Today we are being tasked to stand gently
in self-assurance while also fostering an ability to appreciate
someone else who may be completely different from ourselves. The more
certain you are of your own worth and the more appreciative you are
of your own individuality, the more accepting you are able to be of
someone else's worth and individuality. But, the longer you struggle
to obtain validation for all of this from the outside world, the more
of a pain in the ass you become. Sorry, the world doesn't revolve
around you (or your agenda). Or me. But, that fact doesn't debase our
right to be here and be who we are.
Are you able to find satisfaction
within yourself to a degree that you can also find appreciation for
someone who also stands firmly in who they are? Or do you need to
throw negativity on the other person's efforts of self-expression in
an effort to make yourself look/feel better? When someone else's
light seems to be shining brilliantly, do you see that as a threat to
your luminosity? Or can you comfortably stand by just beaming your
inner glow in tandem? Do you need validation from the outside world
to tell you are on the right track and of importance in this world?
Or can you foster that all by your big grown up self? It's likely we
may get a gut check in that area somewhere during the course of this
day. Rise above this potential spotlight tug-of-war by fostering a
bit of maturity and reaching for a solid sense of self-worth. Realize
you are one piece of the collective with no less importance than the
person standing next to you (Aquarius) while employing depth of true
character with consciousness about your own “shadow” (Scorpio) in
an effort to balance out this fixed and potentially stubborn tension.
If you happen to run across an attention whore or drama queen, have
sympathy for this person because they know not how beautifully they
shine. They've not a clue. I'd not spend much time petting the lions
though. This is something the attention starved person will have to
fix on their own. Model what standing in your own self-worth worth
looks like, instead, while refraining from punching them straight in
the face for their spotlight grabbing (and often annoying)
displays...or try, at least?
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