This morning we wake up to the Libra
Moon just leaving the stressful waxing square between Uranus and
Pluto. Just after the Sun is fully up in the sky, our Moon meets Sun
and Chiron by inconjunct (8:26 AM/7:48 AM EDT respectively). Our
analytical Air Moon may not be comfortable or may not understand how
identifying with her pain (for better or worse) affects her
relationships. Let me give you a brief example. I know a guy who
continually and habitually dates married women. He chooses this for
two reasons 1) his wife from years ago left him for another man. She
was unfaithful to him wounding him very deeply. 2) it's safe for him
emotionally. If the married woman becomes too attached, he disappears
or tells her not to leave her husband. He is able to completely avoid
his fear of intimacy this way. And, he admits that sometimes he feels
as if he is “giving the world back” some of the pain he had to
endure.
If you think this sounds assholish,
well, then, I have a tendency to agree. But, this is just one extreme
real life example of how we can allow our pain to subconsciously lead
us in partnering. This just happens to be a more obvious example.
Perhaps you are the girl who only dates guys you deem are less
attractive than you so that you can feel beautiful in comparison.
Perhaps you are the guy who only dates shallow women who want someone
with money...and you have it...because you are afraid that is the
only thing others like about you. Perhaps you are the guy who dates
vulnerable women so you can feel like their savior. Perhaps you
choose folks you believe are less intelligent than you so you can
feel smart. It. Happens. All. The. Time. Most people, however, don't
do this consciously. They habitually go through life subconsciously
choosing mates through this pain filter and never even notice. All
the while, they are left with less than satisfactory relationships
and cannot figure out what in the heck they are doing wrong in the
choosing. You'll hear folks say, “I don't know why I continually
attract x, y or z.” A lot of the time it's not so much that you are
attracting them (though sometimes this IS true) but moreso that you
are choosing them based on some criteria that you may not even be
fully aware of. So, it can be both. You could be attracting them and
subsequently choosing them. Think about what it is you are
continually telling the Universe to send you especially if it feels
like you aren't getting what you truly want. You tell the Universe
through your choices. If you want to be sent (or to attract)
something different then quit picking up the same old stuff...you
know?
Revelations like this can become
cognizant under today's moon particularly if you are in the middle of
a relationship that has just blown up either under the tense actions
of Venus or from our Libra Moon. The best bet here is to accept these
truths whether they be about pain that causes you to partner or pain
that causes you to unpartner or pain that causes you to blow stuff up
in general. Denial will only make the problem exacerbate. Acceptance,
however, can help you operate with your pain and help you to make
better choices in light of it instead of allowing those elusive pains
to subconsciously control your decisions. As a result, that wound
heals a little. However, know this pain may always be an antagonist
to what is best for you. In that regard, it's best not to leave the
pain unattended, denied...don't allow the wound to fester. Be a
conscious caretaker of your sore spots. They are a part of you that
also needs attention. To put it in a nutshell, the better you know
your machine; the more effectively you can drive it. Would you drive
your car around in denial of the fact that you have a flat tire?
At noon, our Libra Moon opposes her
current ruler, Venus in Aries. There is a push and pull here. One
side, Venus, wants to be independent. She wants passionate and active
relationships. But, she isn't willing to give up pursuing her own
desires or get lost in the relationship. Libra Moon is very concerned
about how everyone else feels. She wants to accommodate them and make
them comfortable because it makes HER feel better in the end. If
everyone else is satiated and comfortable; she feels satiated and
comfortable. However, not taking the time to also address her own
desires can eventually become a problem. A person can build
resentment that way. She can spend too much time worrying about what
everyone else needs and end up forsaking herself.
Venus in Aries doesn't have this
problem. She is poking at our Libra Moon saying, “Hey, when you are
done making nicey nice with everyone else, maybe you can make nicey
nice with yourself.” It is possible to weigh some of this out. If
you feel worn down today and have obligations to others to meet,
don't be afraid to call folks up and say, “You know, I don't think
I'm going to be able to do this today. I'm so sorry. Perhaps we can
reschedule.” Then, take a “me” day and don’t' you dare feel a
bit guilty for it. If the people you are engaged in relationships
with really have your best interests in mind, they will understand
that you need self-care just like they do. If they don't have your
best interests in mind (like you do theirs) then you will find that
out rather quickly too. It really is a tug of war between “What
they need” (Moon in Libra) and “what you want” (Venus in Aries)
here. Again. Balance it out. Understand that being the caretaker of
your own desires actually HELPS your relationships in the long run.
If you can satisfy your own desires, then you stop looking for folks
to bring satisfaction to you. Then, you can foster interdependent
relationships...which should be the goal to begin with.
At 9:25 PM a fresh breeze wafts in
through the Air trine created from the Moon in Libra to Mercury in
Aquarius. Here, there is opportunity to detach from the emotionality
of whatever situation you have encountered recently and really study
the facts and evidence of what has occurred. We can study what has
happened as if we were reading the results of a chemistry experiment
discovering where we should have mixed things differently. It's also
a great aspect to use to seek out conversations with friends or to
search for distraction on the internet. The caution is not to OVER
think the situation. Don't become so wrapped up in the analysis that
you forget you are not a robot...you do have needs and emotions to
address in this too. But, this aspect is mainly for looking at the
situation through analytical and logical eyes getting a break from
the emotionality of the situation while you can. Because,
emotionality WILL re-enter our world as the Moon moves into Scorpio.
After the trine to Mercury, the Moon is
Void until entering Scorpio at 9:11 AM (EDT) Monday. Get your rest
tonight and don't allow a churning brain to rob you of sleep. Then,
when you get up tomorrow, put on your water wings and rain boots.
It's likely gonna be pretty wet and steamy (if not a bit lusty and blood thirsty) out there.
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