This morning we wake up to Moon in
Aries disarmed by Venus in Aquarius. The two meet by sextile at 9:24
AM just as the Moon reaches Void status. She remains Void until
entering Taurus at 11:38 AM, right in time for lunch.
This afternoon, there is a chance for
some tension. The morning is fairly smooth. But, as the Moon enters
Taurus something shifts. In the morning, we are charmed by the idea
of change. By evening, we may be wishing we could go back to the way
things were. Just one more time. Our memories are still so fresh its
as if we can relive every moment. One more goodbye kiss. One more
time to just snuggle into someone's essence. One more time to hear
them laugh again.
At 10:29 PM the Moon meets Neptune by
sextile. A million country songs just flashed through my head in the
mere moment it took me to write that sentence. They were all about
remembering someone and wishing you had been given more time. One
last goodbye. One last conversation. Just one more. That's all we
want. We know we can't stay there. But, can't we just go back and
taste that moment again?
We could have those same feelings about
things that have slipped away as well as people. “I wish I had
eaten one more package of Oreo's before I started this diet.” One
more time to dip their chocolatey goodness into a glass of ice cold
milk. One more time to allow the smooth sweetness of the icing to
coat my tongue.
This feeling continues to exacerbate as
we are met with our First Quarter Moon. Remember those intentions or
promises you made to yourself at the first of the month or the first
of the year? Today is the day those intentions may meet with the
anchor of resistance. Temptation and sweet memories of the past wax
in calling us to return. “What is all this crazy talk of change?
Why can't we just cling to what is? Can we not just stop time for a
second to keep it from barreling forward so quickly that we miss what
is happening right now?” The thought of it makes my heart hurt.
Don't worry. That's a familiar feeling when you have a Pisces Moon.
There's this particular kind of ache of hollowness. Every now and
then, though, something comes along and tickles that ache making it
more prominent. In a mildly masochistic way, I kind of like it. You
may just experience similar under Moon sextile Neptune.
I understand what it is like to look
back upon a past situation in your life and wish that you could go
back to it one more time. (Boy, do I ever) Astrology can say that
Moon/Neptune is forgetful as much as it wants to. But, when there is
a memory that packs an emotional punch, Moon/Neptune can remember
plenty in vivid detail and re-paint a picture of that moment in their
mind through use of not only a memory of what happened, but memories
that incorporate information from every sense of the body. You
remember how the person smelled. You remember the temperature of the
room. The background noise. Not only do you remember the events from
that moment, you remember the feel of it. That makes missing someone
particularly bittersweet. It's as if they are almost right there in
front of you. There are times when you may think you can actually
hear their voice or catch a wafting of their perfume. The only thing
missing is your ability to physically touch them. But, your body can
even remember what that was like.
The best way to deal with this energy?
Go there. Taurus is not the best energy to force self-denial upon. If
you are tempted to break your diet that you started at the beginning
of the year, then reasonably indulge just a little...maybe three
Oreo's instead of the whole package. And, if you find yourself with
someone, drink that experience in...what if tomorrow never comes? Or
what if tomorrow comes and they aren't there.
If you feel like you have been on a
swift forward moving train of change, give yourself permission to get
off and enjoy the scenery at the next stop. Self-check where you are.
Take time to drink in the present moment. If you find yourself
drifting backward, go there instead of fighting it.
At the same time, don't let your
memories of the past and your longings to rekindle something to
derail you completely. It's always your favorite sins that do you in.
But, you can use the diligence and plodding of Taurus to just slow
you down long enough to reassess the changes you have made. You don't
need to completely jump track. Maybe previously made plans for the
future need to be re-considered, tweaked or re-assessed. Mercury is
retrograde you know? Mentally go there. But don't aim to just
remember the good things you might be leaving behind. Remember what
circumstances catalyzed you toward change to begin with. Were you
being impulsive in your plans to move forward? Slow down and re-think
it. If you decide this is still something you want to move forward
with, then take one solid step in that direction. However, if you are
not sure, slow down and let it simmer for awhile. This is not a race.
Whatever moment you find yourself in tonight, savor it. Worry about
tomorrow and the future when it comes. Tonight, touch, feel, smell
and sink into the present moment. Drink in every drop imprinting it
in your mind and upon your soul. Tomorrow will come. You cannot stop
it. Today, however, is fleeting and dying one second at a time.
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