A few years ago, a dear friend of mine
pointed out that Pluto would make 5 passes in square to my Mars and
Neptune would make 5 conjunctions to my Moon all within the same time
frame. Today marks the 5th square of Pluto to Mars exact
to the minute (11 35 Capricorn/Libra) as transiting Mars meets Pluto
by conjunction tonight (6:01 PM). The 5th conjunction of
Neptune to my Moon is coming soon after Neptune turns direct on the
15th.
Over the last few years, as I've
experienced these Pluto squares, I've learned a lot about my Mars and
how it operates. This is in addition to the knowledge I already had
about my own Mars conjunct Pluto in my natal chart in the 8th
house. I remember when I first started pontificating the
possibilities that would arise with these squares and vowed to buy a
kevlar jumpsuit for protection. And...actually, there WAS a firearm
involved in one skirmish in which this aspect was activated. It
wasn't aimed at me, though. The other party involved in the skirmish
was aiming it at themselves. I was attempting to disarm them.
Thinking about it now, it was a pretty volatile and potentially
dangerous situation. But, in that moment, I had no fear. Immediate
action was required and I didn't hesitate to take it.
There were many times during these
transits in which I was under actual direct threat, though. And, in
each instance, I found myself fearless and prepared to handle
whatever came my way. The threats did not scare me, in the least.
What scared me was my vengeful, vicious, blood thirsty initial
reaction to them. I have spent a lot of time over the past few years
talking myself down and reminding myself that I really didn't want to
be a monster. And, it was shown very clearly to me that I did have
the potential to be a monster. I have spent a lot of time disallowing
people to push my buttons to the point where I feel this level of
viciousness. That was hard to do in and of itself with Neptune on my
Moon as well. I could certainly feel my own seething. But, the
permeability of my Moon also helped me feel their seething acutely
compounding my own anger.
Through all of this, physical threats,
power struggles etc, I discovered the biggest power struggle of them
all was the battle going on inside of me. I learned to let go of the
rope in power tug of wars whose outcome, in the long run, mattered
very little to me. I learned to leash up my anger and take it
somewhere safe for me to unleash it. I learned to let go of seething
and vengeance. I vowed to use this bottomless source of power for
production and regeneration instead of allowing it to prompt me to
hurt others. That vow was tested over and over again. I had to
re-direct myself in each situation and sometimes that was very
difficult.
Needless to say, I've learned a lot
about myself during this transit and some of it I would rather not
know. But, now that I do know, I can direct it purposely instead of
allowing the energy to take the path of least of resistance prompting
me to do something I would surely later regret. I've also learned
where the seat of this seething anger comes from. In peeling off the
layers of my Mars I found the barbs in my childhood and early
upbringing that provoke me to such a level of defense. Interestingly,
some of those barbs were placed in my very early life as Pluto made
his way across most of my chart by conjunction. So far, he has met my
Mars, Uranus, Sun, Mercury, Neptune and Jupiter by conjunction
between 2 years of age and now.
Overall, the way I operate has changed
in light of these Pluto squares. The way I engage in situations has
changed. The way I react and handle my anger has changed. These have
been very positive changes, but I could just have easily allowed the
forcefulness of Pluto to cause me to do irrevocably ugly things. The
choice was up to me as the change for better or worse was due to
happen either way. The Universe is wonderfully impartial in these
situations doling out consequences when applicable to either choice
you make. I could have become a killer or a black hearted evil witch
as Pluto to my Mars also made my powers of manifestation very potent.
But, I didn't want to be those things. So, I set my choices to steer
me in a different direction. And, in doing so, my personal powers
grew even more. I'm more self-mastered and stronger than ever. I feel
if I had chosen to let this inner beast loose, that would be more of
a sign of weakness than prowess. True power comes from the ability to
steer yourself toward doing the right thing for you instead of
allowing other people's provocations to prompt you to do something
out of line with who you want to become. Sometimes self-defense and
combating your attacker is not as simple as taking them on in hand to
hand combat. Sometimes the best preservation efforts are those that
take you out of that situation or deescalates it even when you know
you could absolutely devour the person who is coming after you and
even when escalation of the situation is so, so tempting and
alluring. Don't think for a minute that I wasn't tempted. Temptation
was paramount! There were times it was seductive, even. Pluto is dead
sexy and sometimes that is hard to resist. I mean, the Devil does has
his wiles...you know?
I also learned that I have a tendency
to be provocative and catalystic. That is why I named my business
Shock Therapy. The title fits my chart and some of my natural
tendencies. But, I choose to use the powers of provocation and
catalysm to help people instead of push them to the edge of
destruction. I want people to understand that they are not doomed by
the harsher energies in their natal charts or that they experience by
transit. You have a choice. I am living proof.
Today, we wake up to the Moon in
Cancer. The emotional body is brought to the forefront. The
prominence of the emotional body is highlighted even more with a
trine from the Moon to Neptune at 12:45 PM. Many may feel emotional,
moody and potentially withdrawn. I'll also remind you that intuition
enters the body through emotion. These inklings are not very clear if
you are not familiar with your own intuitive and emotional body. In
those instances, incoming intuitive feelings are interpreted as
anxiousness or nervousness. Our water signs hold the biggest
potential for an influx of both emotion and intuition. Our ability to
handle these rifts in the water depend largely upon how well we
navigate our emotional body to begin with. Being well grounded and
having tight boundaries helps tremendously with this. It also helps
to put a leash on your re-activeness and, instead, allow yourself
time to evaluate the entirety of the situation instead of just
skimming the surface of what is going on.
At it's best, Moon/Neptune helps us
empathically feel our connection to all things. It increases our
compassion and talents of intuition. The aspect can bring a direct
connection to divinity producing one of the most exalting spiritual
experiences a living person can have. At it's worst, it is
emotionally swamping, leaves us more open to illnesses and confusion
perhaps promoting emotionally escapist behaviors be those escapist
behaviors rooted in sleep, wallowing or drugs and alcohol. Again,
grounding and boundaries make all the difference here.
Mars meets Pluto by conjunction at 6:01
PM and this power lust and alluring temptation toward vengeance
overlays the whole day. But, it is compounded as the Moon meets the
conjunction by opposition between 1:45 AM and 2:14 AM. Night terrors
come to mind with the exactitude of this aspect occurring overnight.
But, during waking hours, some may feel as if they are actually
living a nightmare.
There may be actual physical attacks
and various abuses of power that occur over the next few days. But,
what is at true issue here is the battle within our selves between
our higher more refined drives and our lower personal demons. Now.
That is not to say that you need to lay down arms in the event that
you are actually physically attacked or targeted as a victim for some
of these abuses of power. It is not to say that your personal demons
are to blame for you being attacked or targeted. What it means is the
person who is threatening, attacking or abusing their power has lost
the struggle with their personal demons and the suggestion to you is
to survive and get out of the dangerous situation quickly without
allowing the person to drag you down with them.
Sure. You can engage in hand to hand
combat. But, battles between two people under the influence of
Mars/Pluto are long, bloody and can result in death. So, you know, if
you've got nothing better to do than to prove how many blows you can
endure or how much you can bleed without dying go ahead. I'll be over
there, in my safe place, eating a cookie until everyone else chills
the hell out.
Physically defend yourself when
necessary. But, mark your primary aim toward exiting not exacerbating
volatile situations. Be wary of the inklings brought to you through
intuition. But, wait out those inklings instead of jumping to
conclusions by grounding yourself in the reality that not everyone is
out to get you. At the same time, realize that not everyone is aware
and consciously working to direct this energy away from
destructiveness. Some will fall prey to the lustful vengeance of
Mars/Pluto and some will perform unspeakable acts in the process.
This is NOT the day to go around poking
people as most will be emotionally sensitive making them more open to
reacting from a base of pain and confusion rather than one fostered
in logic and reason. Step away from the crazy people. Protect
yourself and, in that process, study the things that trigger you
aiming to find their root cause so you can better direct yourself in
light of those triggers.
Be active burning off any excess energy
that threatens to build up causing you to become reactive and
volatile...on edge. If you feel yourself seething in anger, take that
anger for a walk and DO NOT invite the person agitating you to come
along. Dismiss yourself from the power struggle and expend your anger
wisely and productively. Capricorn calls for responsible use of power
and that burden of responsibility falls upon each individual. Don't
allow yourself to be the weaker one who just spews that anger
detrimentally all over the place.
Today and tomorrow are tight....with a
razor sharp edge. Be careful and be conscious of both yourself and
your surroundings. The tension brought forth under this Moon (not to
mention the rising emotional tides that accompany the tension)
persists all the way until the Moon finds Saturn in Scorpio via trine
at 4:18 AM on the 12th pushing the Moon into Void status.
We have the power of endurance at our disposal with all the Scorpio
energy in the sky and the perfection of Mars/Pluto. We can survive it
and come out the other end stronger than we were when we entered it.
And, on the milder extreme, we can entertain the lustfulness held
within this set of aspects through sex with a trusted partner. Sex
with mutual consent and trust can be particularly gratifying tonight.
It is the non-consenting sex and the abuses of power directed toward
getting it that is partially what we need to be wary of.
Aim for a strong center of
self-control, grounding and awareness today. Eat well. Ensure you've
obtained adequate amounts of rest and decrease any intake of
unnecessary stimulants (caffeine, nicotine and sugars) and chemicals
(illegal drugs, intoxicants) as these threaten to make you more
likely to be over-reactive. Do NOT poke the bears. Do NOT stay in
harms way just because you think you can take down your attacker. And
firmly tell the Devil to get behind you today taking his inklings of
temptation with him. Know that there will be people who will
negatively respond to this energy so don't put yourself in positions
where you are more likely to meet up with those folks (no lingering
in dark alleys, please). Keep your guard and radar up when in out in
public while disallowing that pro-active guard to steer itself toward
paranoia. Stand firmly in a position of self-control and do not allow
anyone to provoke you into acting like a future inmate.
If you have planets at 11 degrees
cardinal who have been continually under the influence of Pluto for
the past few years, know that Mars interacting with that square calls
for you to take action on what you have learned thus far. Employ what
you have learned from these transits responsibly as if you were the
boss of your energies...because you are.
If all of this sounds potentially scary
and volatile, that's because it IS. And, I just can't sprinkle sugar
on that fact and try to pass it off as a gift. Be careful out there.
The night is dark and full of terrors and the wolves are hungrily
pacing outside.
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