This morning we wake up to Moon in
Gemini moving away from an opposition with Mars (1:13 AM) and waxing
into a trine with Mercury in Libra (1:59 PM). The reviewing and
revising of collected information gains emotional importance under
this aspect. How you perceive information or the context you place it
in has emotional ramifications. People may be prone to speak to their
minds. Or this could even be an energy that prompts you to get in
touch with old friends you've not spoken to in awhile.
I recently had a Mercury Rx moment that
contained echoes of Venus/Pluto. I was cleaning out my closet and
re-discovered an old VHS player and a box of videos that I purchased
right after my divorce. I packed this stuff away 10 years ago when I
bought the house I'm living in now.
I laughed as I looked through some of
the movie titles. Hope Floats. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.
Last of the Mohicans. Legends of the Fall. Most of them were heart
ripping love stories. My Pisces Moon trine Mercury in Scorpio was
apparently taking over since my tastes were a bit masochistic but
held a high preference for intelligent yet deep story lines.
As I was re-watching some of these
titles, I remembered advising people earlier this month that their
words may come back to them under this retrograde. I'm now prompted
to advise that your thoughts could also come back for you to review.
As the Moon begins her journey through Cancer today, you could also
be surprised by some memories that resurface due to various stimuli.
I had memories, alright. Memories of
guilt and shame because my marriage failed and I played a HUGE part
in the demise of it. My parents and kids loved the guy. I felt I had
let them all down by leaving him. Besides, as far as the outside
world knew, we were the perfect couple.
Problem was, I began learning to say
“No” in those days. I felt ridiculously selfish for it, too. It
also completely threw people off.
I had rented a house for my children
and I. In our early days there, we had no appliances. We used a
beverage cooler for food storage and cooked on a propane camping
stove. My kids were set. I made sure of that. I brought every bit of
their furniture with us. So, we didn't have a stove, but, by golly,
we had a Foosball table!
I, however, had no furniture. My
bedroom consisted of a couch cushion as a bed and several plastic
milk crates stacked up to create a TV stand. I surrendered full
control of the living room to my kids and their friends (and the
Foosball table). Therefore, I spent a lot of time on my couch cushion
watching movies on my milk crate supported 19 inch TV. No one
understood why I would leave a nice country farm with a 6 bedroom
newly remodeled house for a couch cushion and a beverage cooler.
Needless to say, re-watching these old
VHS tapes brought back a lot of memories and provided room for a
personal re-assessment of where I was then vs where I am now. Then,
like I said, I was ashamed for acting in accordance with what I
wanted and seemingly disregarding everyone else's feelings about it.
I was scared, because, even though I knew I had the power to pull
myself out of the hole I had just thrown myself in, I wasn't really
sure exactly how I would do that yet. Then, I had no idea that within
less than a year's time I would be the owner of my own home with all
new appliances (and cable) and my first brand new car. I did know,
however, that things were going to improve because I was just too
stubborn to allow them to get worse. I was also extremely motivated
by a desire to make life as close to normal as possible again for my
children. It was a very pivotal time in my personal history. One that
had ramifications that would echo for years to come.
Now, I'm happily re-married, my kids
are grown and I still sleep next to milk crates. I stacked them up
and made a nightstand/bookshelf out of them. They stand as a constant
reminder of “where I was.” The journey back in time that these
movies provided reminded me of my own discovery of “who I am.”
Before this period in my life, I hadn't given it much thought. I took
ownership of my life in those days. Even though I had few physical
possessions at the time, the knowledge that I had 100% power over
myself and the direction of my life meant more to me than piles of
gold.
My interest in Astrology and the
Spiritual world sparked at those times too. No way my ex-husband
would have let me explore these areas while we lived together. As a
matter of fact, after our divorce he found out I had these interests
and became convinced I was possessed. He even consulted a priest and
a psychologist (he isn't even Catholic). I'm not kidding. After I got
past the fear of him catalyzing some crazy stuff that could result in
losing my kids, I played the heck out of his fear in this area. I
should probably feel shame over that, but, I don't. It was too
freaking entertaining. It was completely an Aquarius vs Aquarius
battle. Except THIS person with Aquarius energy also had Neptune (and
a ton of Pluto). It was awesome. To this day he is still very wary of
me and my “Devil Powers” (as he puts it), which, I also find
hilarious.
Basically, I'm telling you all of this
to illustrate a few points. One, being over accommodating and leaving
yourself out of your arrangements in partnerships can put you in a
hole of dissatisfaction quickly. With Sun/Venus in Libra, this is a
huge possibility. Second, if you have scenarios that emerge
that throw you back in time (like the one I just described) treat it
in the appropriate context...as a personal checkpoint for
re-assessment. You don't have to emotionally torture yourself over
memories of where you were. Just observe and then time travel bit by
bit back to where you are today. What has changed? How have you
changed? What have you learned? Let go and re-orient yourself as
needed.
After the Moon's trine with Mercury,
she is Void until entering Cancer at 7:31 PM. As the Moon passes
through Cancer, there will be plenty of tight squares in the sky to
contend with. Cardinal Moons are due to continue to be pressurized.
Plus, we are still in between eclipses. Weird stuff is popping loose
all over the place. Be easy with yourself and others. Look for
possibilities in potential setbacks. Change breeds opportunity.
Cardinal energy is capable of monopolizing the heck out of that fact.
But, you have to wrap your brain around it properly and be able to
deal with the influx of emotions in order to see it.
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